Farewell 2017: New Year, New Me

 I can’t believe 2017 is over! 2017 has been an emotional roller coaster ride. There were many ups and downs. I couldn’t tell you guys how many times I tried to figure out what I want to do with my life and who I want to be. I felt emotionally exhausted from soul-searching. There were lessons learned. I know I do not want to repeat the similar mistakes again. I noticed some friendships grew and some friendship faded. I decided to cut some people off out of my life who I felt were not important to me or relevant.  They showed me their true colors when I needed them. I’ve acknowledge some people were not meant to be in my life forever, however I appreciated every person who came into my life. Every person has brought me a life lesson. 2017 was also about making big decisions. I have figured out what’s important me and learned how vital my future can be for me. I finally know what I want! I will fight for what I want!

I was able find peace with myself after being depressed for about two years. There were a few moments in my life where I had suicidal thoughts. It was scary to admit, however it’s a great thing I never harm myself in anyway. I was able to pull away from my miserable self. I thought I lost myself,  but I never did. I’ve fought through all the drastic changes in my life, which helped shaped me to become the person who I am destine to be.  I was terrified about how my life will never be same again. I know I can be my own worse enemy, which I’ve acknowledge one of my biggest weakness is being a perfectionist. I’m aware that I am human and my life will never be perfect. No matter how much I want it to be!  I can always try my best in whatever I set my mind into. The year of 2018, I’ll continue to enjoy living my life to the fullest. I can do whatever I want since I don’t have a family or children.

In 2017, I’ve grown to be comfortable of being alone. Sometime I don’t need to have company to have fun. I love spending personal time with me, myself and I. Sometime I rather be at home and binged watch on Netflix in my bed whenever I could. I’ve also learn how important self love can impact on my life. In order for me to find internal love and happiness, I have to start taking care of myself first. I am proud for overcoming my struggles. I can see I have became an mature adult. I’ve transformed into a beautiful flower. I am no longer shy or insecure about myself.  I am strong, confident, and beautiful. I know what I want!


2018 will be the year for me. I can feel it! I can’t wait for what the year will bring me! I will never stop learning and improving myself on a daily basis. I will continue finding new ways to appreciate and love myself. I’m looking forward for new opportunities heading toward my direction. I will not give up on what I have. And I will not give up on myself! I will fight, fight, fight!


My New Year Resolutions:

  1. Take better care of myself: both physically and mentally
  2. Focus on what is important to me
  3. Appreciate the little things in my life
  4. Do more, take more initiatives
  5. Connect and network with new bloggers, influencers & artists
  6. Focus on building my brand by working on more collaborations.
  7. Get out of my shell: Don’t be afraid of feeling uncomfortable
  8. Find more ways to make more money
  9. Travel more, try out new things
  10. Have fun and enjoy my life

 My friend Jacob and I decided to do a fun collaboration a few months ago. We put together a beautiful Fall photoshoot. Jacob did an awesome job creating the short video clip from the photoshoot. The video is posted below. Jacob is very talented at what he does. He is a great photographer and videopgrapher. I always enjoy working with Jacob. All of the pictures came out beautiful. He was able to captured a different side of me, which I never noticed before. It is an incredible feeling to feel care-free and happy again. It is refreshing for me to feel this way!  It is pretty awesome how Jacob was able to capture the feelings I’ve had that day.


This video represent maturity, self love and moving forward with my life. I hope you all can relate to my stories in some ways. I hope you guys enjoy watching this short clip.

Check out Jacob’s website to see more of his awesome collaborations:

https://jacobalexander35.myportfolio.com/

Follow him on Instagram as well!!

@ja_did_it  

&

@forward.films_

My Inner Circle

I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching and focusing on what is important to me. I also noticed that my relationships with my friends has changed. Of course I have different groups of friends. I noticed either some of us had grown apart or maybe we don’t share the same level of interests or hobbies anymore. I am also surprised some of my closest relationships that I had since my childhood also faded away. I know some of you guys may think I have a lot of friends in my life, but to be frank I don’t. I have to admit it hurts sometimes….. I tend to be get emotional when I loose a friend.

It is hard for me to maintain my female friendships, especially in my 20s. This is the time of my life where I want to share my experiences, my success, my journeys with my friends. Trust is also very important to me and I find it challenging for me to trust anyone around me. Sometimes I feel lonely. I like to be invited to social gatherings and special occasions even if I don’t show up or I couldn’t attend at least someone was thinking about me. I hate being left out from a social gathering or from a group. And It’s not a great feeling either.

I don’t know if any of you ladies can relate to me, but let me ask you all this. How important does friendships means to you? Let me be specific, how important is your female friendships? Ask yourself these questions….Who do you think are your true friends? Are your so-call “friends ” reliable? Do you have a friend that you can trust to keep your darkest secrets? Who do consider is your best friend? When was the last time you asked yourself, why did some of my friendships fizzled or dissolved away?

It is frustrating to me. Sometimes I never had a clear explanation why things ended a certain way. I do understand we all are busy with our separate lives. Majority of us have full-time jobs and have other responsibilities to prioritize. Some of us have boyfriends and girlfriends that we want to focus on, but it also important to focus on your friends to make sure we continue to stay connected whenever we need each other or want to see each other.

I tend to ask myself, did I do something wrong? or Did I say something wrong to make them not want talk to me? I have to put on a fake face pretend everything is okay, which I really hate! The last thing I don’t like being called is being two face. I’m not trying to point any fingers or targeting anyone. I understand certain friendships aren’t meant to last forever. I learned over the last few years, a few of my friends changed. They finally showed me their true colors of themselves. Some of those changes I didn’t like or understand which results our friendships to fade away. I’ve already tried to do my part to mend my relationships and even tried to stay connected. I’m getting frustrated of being the only person reaching out. Come on! It’s not a one way street here! I’m over everything honestly…

In a week I will be turning 26 and I decided to turn a new leaf in my life. I decided to let go all of the negativity I’ve experienced with with myself in the last year. I’m going to cherish and appreciate all of the friendships I’ve developed whether my friends are from work, from school or etc… and also I will pay attention to the people who are in here for me and want to be around me. I believe there is a reason for every person who walked into my life and each person carried a learning lesson. What I need right now is to surround myself with positive and encouraging people that will push me to reach my goals and dreams. I’m not forcing anyone to be my friend, if anyone feel they are being forced to be my friend then you all can leave because I don’t have room for any negativity nor dramas in my life! The last thing I want to do is set expectations on friends, and if they don’t meet those expectations then I will get disappointed. I don’t need anymore stress in my life to worry about. I’m done. Whatever is done! I don’t anyone to waste my time or energy!!!

Mikasa Beauty Brushes

A few months back I got an email from the marketing director at Mikasa Beauty. They recognized that I have a strong social media platform and wanted to create a collaboration with me to introduce Mikasa Beauty Collection. Of course I couldn’t say no to them. I decided to purchases this Mikasa techni brushes set, it comes with four brushes. They even sent me a free lemon drop makeup blender (Mikasa 100)! I recommend you ladies try out these brushes!


I’m glad Mikasa Beauty connected with me because I saw these type of brushes everywhere on social media and I was dying to buy some! I absolutely love love love these brushes! These techni brushes are made 100% synthetic fibers that create ultra-dense and soft brushes. I’ve been learning how to do facial contours. These techni brushes are perfect for applying and blending both powder and cream products to all areas to the face.


Mikasa Techni brush #06

This rounded brush is great for application of blush, foundation, contour or setting powder. Also good for blending to the smalls areas of the face and cheeks.


This Mikasa Techni Brush #02 is the perfect multi-purpose tool. It can also be used to apply a soft wash of color to the eyelid or brow bone. It easily blends powder or cream eye shadows, face powders, and liquid or cream-concealers in the hard to reach contours of the face.


This Mikasa Techni brush #L2 is perfect for creating firm, precise line along the upper and lower lash lines. Also defines and fill brows, and can be used to define the lips.


This Mikasa Techni Brush #C2 is use to applies and blends product into the eyelids crease. This small round brush with a curved dome tip can also be used to apply and blend around small areas for example around the eyes or nostrils.


Click on the link below to view more Mikasa Beauty Products!

https://www.mikasabeauty.com/

Pearls & Plaids “Sip and Shop”Blogger Event 

 

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I decided to join the Connecticut Bloggers Collective group {CTbloggerbabes}. This group gives me the opportunity to meet and network with various bloggers and talents throughout Connecticut.  Last Sunday I was fortunate to be invited  to the “Sip and Shop” blogger event, hosted by Pearls and Plaid. This was my first time attending to this type of networking events  specifically for bloggers. I had an amazing time. I  didn’t want to leave. Pearls and Plaid is a small boutique in Old Saybrooke, CT. The boutique was super cute and cozy. I spend way too much money!! But don’t you worry I will come back soon!

[You can find Pearls & Plaid at 1330 Boston Post Rd, Old Saybrooke, CT 06475]

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My Velvet Dream Obsession 


I’m telling you guys that the 90s style trends are coming back! Sometimes I wish some of the trends will never ever come back! However, there is one trend I’m super obsessed with is the “velvet on velvet” style, especially from head to toe! If you ladies are crazy about velvet like me then the “Velvet on velvet” look is for you. I’m pretty sure you ladies are beginning to see this new fad spreading around on social media and also in major shopping department stores. This style is also perfect to wear for the holidays occasions! And the holidays seasons is around the corner!


Here is my own “velvet on velvet” inspirations:

I bought this matching black velvet top and black velvet pants at Nordstrom Rack. I thought it would be cool to wear the top and bottom together because if you ladies look the pictures my outfit looks like a jumpsuit. Did I mentioned my pants has pockets?!?!  I also wore a red blazer to add a pop of color to my wardrobe. By the way this outfit was so comfy!! 🙂

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This outfit include the same velvet pants, however I just switch out my top and blazer. Instead I wore a navy lace camisole and a grey blazer. I also change my shoes game too! I wore my Marc Fisher silver tassel loafer.

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New announcements for Phashion Therapy! 



I’m super excited to announced to this! Either this week or next week I will be updating my website/blog. There will be new pages and additions on my blog. There will be a separate page about my daily outfit of the day looks & trends. There will be a page about my hidden beauty trends and secrets. Also a page for my food reviews And the last page will be about my previous travel experiences and upcoming vacations! So stay tune 😊💁🏻
I hope I can build a my own business one day… 🙏✨✨✨

I’m super excited to announced to this! Either this week or next week I will be updating my website/blog. There will be new pages and additions on my blog. There will be a separate page about my daily outfit of the day looks & trends. There will be a page about my hidden beauty trends and secrets. Also a page for my food reviews And the last page will be about my previous travel experiences and upcoming vacations! So stay tune 😊💁🏻
I hope I can build a my own business one day… 🙏✨✨✨

New Changes in my life! Plus I got promoted!


Hello everyone!

Fall is finally here! It’s the seasons of layering.  I’m sorry I haven’t been posting as much lately. I’ve been super busy. I have experienced many changes in my life within the last two months. My sister got engaged and I got promoted!




My sister recently got engaged! I am so happy for my sister and my brother-in-law  to be. I’ve been helping them plan their wedding. And don’t worry I’ll definitely  write posts later on this year about all the wedding details and planning from venues, color schemes, the food tasting, all of the DIY projects, and etc.



Another recent change that had occurred was I got promoted . In the last two weeks I’ve been adjusting into my new role as  an assistant manager at work. I am the new assistant manager for the Individualist, Via.C, & Encore department ( women’s apparels) at Nordstrom Westfarms in Connecticut.

I was a regular salesperson in the Men’s department. There wasn’t any growth opportunity for me to move up.  Everything seemed simple. The responsibilities and tasks were pretty easy to juggle with. I desperately needed change! I wanted to challenge myself to take on more responsibilities.

 I’m looking forward to be working in women’s apparels! I’m very excited! It will be a whole new world for me since I’ll be working with more women. Which I don’t mind it at all, I love a great challenging experience! I believe I will be a good leade and role model for my team. I just have to remember to be good to myself 😊.