Farewell 2017: New Year, New Me

 I can’t believe 2017 is over! 2017 has been an emotional roller coaster ride. There were many ups and downs. I couldn’t tell you guys how many times I tried to figure out what I want to do with my life and who I want to be. I felt emotionally exhausted from soul-searching. There were lessons learned. I know I do not want to repeat the similar mistakes again. I noticed some friendships grew and some friendship faded. I decided to cut some people off out of my life who I felt were not important to me or relevant.  They showed me their true colors when I needed them. I’ve acknowledge some people were not meant to be in my life forever, however I appreciated every person who came into my life. Every person has brought me a life lesson. 2017 was also about making big decisions. I have figured out what’s important me and learned how vital my future can be for me. I finally know what I want! I will fight for what I want!

I was able find peace with myself after being depressed for about two years. There were a few moments in my life where I had suicidal thoughts. It was scary to admit, however it’s a great thing I never harm myself in anyway. I was able to pull away from my miserable self. I thought I lost myself,  but I never did. I’ve fought through all the drastic changes in my life, which helped shaped me to become the person who I am destine to be.  I was terrified about how my life will never be same again. I know I can be my own worse enemy, which I’ve acknowledge one of my biggest weakness is being a perfectionist. I’m aware that I am human and my life will never be perfect. No matter how much I want it to be!  I can always try my best in whatever I set my mind into. The year of 2018, I’ll continue to enjoy living my life to the fullest. I can do whatever I want since I don’t have a family or children.

In 2017, I’ve grown to be comfortable of being alone. Sometime I don’t need to have company to have fun. I love spending personal time with me, myself and I. Sometime I rather be at home and binged watch on Netflix in my bed whenever I could. I’ve also learn how important self love can impact on my life. In order for me to find internal love and happiness, I have to start taking care of myself first. I am proud for overcoming my struggles. I can see I have became an mature adult. I’ve transformed into a beautiful flower. I am no longer shy or insecure about myself.  I am strong, confident, and beautiful. I know what I want!


2018 will be the year for me. I can feel it! I can’t wait for what the year will bring me! I will never stop learning and improving myself on a daily basis. I will continue finding new ways to appreciate and love myself. I’m looking forward for new opportunities heading toward my direction. I will not give up on what I have. And I will not give up on myself! I will fight, fight, fight!


My New Year Resolutions:

  1. Take better care of myself: both physically and mentally
  2. Focus on what is important to me
  3. Appreciate the little things in my life
  4. Do more, take more initiatives
  5. Connect and network with new bloggers, influencers & artists
  6. Focus on building my brand by working on more collaborations.
  7. Get out of my shell: Don’t be afraid of feeling uncomfortable
  8. Find more ways to make more money
  9. Travel more, try out new things
  10. Have fun and enjoy my life

 My friend Jacob and I decided to do a fun collaboration a few months ago. We put together a beautiful Fall photoshoot. Jacob did an awesome job creating the short video clip from the photoshoot. The video is posted below. Jacob is very talented at what he does. He is a great photographer and videopgrapher. I always enjoy working with Jacob. All of the pictures came out beautiful. He was able to captured a different side of me, which I never noticed before. It is an incredible feeling to feel care-free and happy again. It is refreshing for me to feel this way!  It is pretty awesome how Jacob was able to capture the feelings I’ve had that day.


This video represent maturity, self love and moving forward with my life. I hope you all can relate to my stories in some ways. I hope you guys enjoy watching this short clip.

Check out Jacob’s website to see more of his awesome collaborations:

https://jacobalexander35.myportfolio.com/

Follow him on Instagram as well!!

@ja_did_it  

&

@forward.films_

My Velvet Dream Obsession 


I’m telling you guys that the 90s style trends are coming back! Sometimes I wish some of the trends will never ever come back! However, there is one trend I’m super obsessed with is the “velvet on velvet” style, especially from head to toe! If you ladies are crazy about velvet like me then the “Velvet on velvet” look is for you. I’m pretty sure you ladies are beginning to see this new fad spreading around on social media and also in major shopping department stores. This style is also perfect to wear for the holidays occasions! And the holidays seasons is around the corner!


Here is my own “velvet on velvet” inspirations:

I bought this matching black velvet top and black velvet pants at Nordstrom Rack. I thought it would be cool to wear the top and bottom together because if you ladies look the pictures my outfit looks like a jumpsuit. Did I mentioned my pants has pockets?!?!  I also wore a red blazer to add a pop of color to my wardrobe. By the way this outfit was so comfy!! 🙂

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This outfit include the same velvet pants, however I just switch out my top and blazer. Instead I wore a navy lace camisole and a grey blazer. I also change my shoes game too! I wore my Marc Fisher silver tassel loafer.

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New announcements for Phashion Therapy! 



I’m super excited to announced to this! Either this week or next week I will be updating my website/blog. There will be new pages and additions on my blog. There will be a separate page about my daily outfit of the day looks & trends. There will be a page about my hidden beauty trends and secrets. Also a page for my food reviews And the last page will be about my previous travel experiences and upcoming vacations! So stay tune 😊💁🏻
I hope I can build a my own business one day… 🙏✨✨✨

I’m super excited to announced to this! Either this week or next week I will be updating my website/blog. There will be new pages and additions on my blog. There will be a separate page about my daily outfit of the day looks & trends. There will be a page about my hidden beauty trends and secrets. Also a page for my food reviews And the last page will be about my previous travel experiences and upcoming vacations! So stay tune 😊💁🏻
I hope I can build a my own business one day… 🙏✨✨✨

My “Quarter Life Crisis” Story

This year I am 25 within five years I will be 30, which is pretty scary to think about! I don’t know if anyone experienced or dealt with “quarter life crisis”in their life, it really sucks! Let me break this down for you… what is “quarter life crisis”???…

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According to a recent study about emerging adults and young adults “somewhere between mid twenties and thirties, they might be experiencing a serious low point in their life. It could be a trial of confused identity, misguided purpose, awkward and hopeless transition.” And, if you’re anything like me, you feel lost, anxious, and panicked.


7 reasons why I might be experiencing  “quarter life crisis” right now…

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1.) This is a confusing time for me. I hate the feeling being stuck in one place and not moving forward to another. And that’s not normal to me! I feel very lost….

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2.) I don’t know what I want to do with my life. Some of my friends who are fresh out of college are fortunate to land their perfect job with full benefits and a solid career plans. For me, I haven’t find mine yet!!! I am concern I won’t succeed before I’m 30. I don’t like to compare myself to other people, but sometimes It’s difficult not to compare myself…I do understand competition is a part of nature and I can never avoid it..

3.) Most of My friends around me are either getting engaged, married or having a baby. For me, I am not engaged or getting married anytime soon. I am no where ready for marriage. Even though I do have my fairy tale dream wedding (sigggghhh)…. I am tired of people asking me when am I ever getting marry… Sometimes I wish everyone can back off and relax! Only time will come…

4.) Yes, I have a loving boyfriend who can always cheer me up….And don’t get me wrong  I love him and adore him, but sometimes it’s not enough. I need to have spent quality time with my girl friends.  I want to be able to share my feelings and experiences because only my “girl” friends can understand what I’m going through. Sometimes men don’t understand us “women” go through on a regular basis.  It’s hard to relate.

I find it difficult to make friends as an adult, especially with females!!!!. We are so catty!!! My circle of friends is getting smaller and smaller by the minute. It’s hard find friends trustworthy and loyal who I can depend on. Most of my friends have boyfriends and have their own priorities, sometime  I am afraid distance and time will drive friendships away without any explanations or reasons. Or Perhaps maybe my personality have change or we don’t share the same level of interests anymore …. Whatever Who knows ..

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5.) Do I want to stay in Connecticut for the rest of my life?! I have no idea! I have been living in Connecticut since I was 5 years old… I don’t know where I will be living in the next 5 years..  I would love to move to a different state. I don’t mind moving to Texas… Or I always want to live in New York or Boston, but I never got the nerve or courage to make it happen. Shoot… I’m 25 years old and I’m still living with my parents (sighhhh). Plus I’m not financially stable yet…

6.) I hate the facts as I get older, I get hit with more responsibility and with more responsibility usually leads to more bills…… so looks like I will be broke for life.

7.) Sometimes I have moments where I feel like I don’t give a fuck anymore. As in I want to give up or run away from reality. I’ve experienced my high moments and low moments. There were some moments where I felt anxious or angry at the strangest time… I felt like I’m going to blow up because I have a lot of things bottled up inside and all I want is to scream on the top of my lungs!  Or I dealt having random panick attacks  ( Don’t  worry I’m not depressed). I’m okay.

Sometime I have moments where I like to go with the flow, going on spontaneous things without having any thoughts and negative repercussions … I called this “yoloing”, which means I don’t care what other people think. And just “do  me” and keep moving forward.


The reason why I am writing this post about my experience with “quarter life crisis” is to share my story and also bring awareness about this social issue. I’m not trying to draw attention to myself.  Many millennial from the age 25 to 35  had either dealt with  “quarter life crisis” or currently experiencing it right now.  It is  common to feel confused or lost.

Hopefully this social struggle is only temporary. I will eventually find my strengths and push through my problems.

And please don’t you worry, you are not alone…. you shouldn’t feel lonely.

   Xoxo #phashiontherapy

Motivation Monday 


I know the weekend flew by wayyyy to fast. And it’s time we all have to get back to our reality. But don’t forget this weekend is 4th of July weekend! So I do know majority of us will have a long four days weekend!!!

Here is a little encouragement and love from me to help cure the Monday blues that we are all having.  I hope you have a bless  and beautiful day. We all should appreciate for living another brand new day. Breathing in the fresh air that we’re all breathing. Having the opportunity to look around to our surroundings; gazing at the horizon, the flowers and birds in the sky, the clear blue sky and the people around us. We will never know with endless of opportunities that can happen to us in one day….All we need is to have hope! Remember we all can do whatever we want to do if we put our mind into. Don’t let negativity hinders us from reaching our goals and achievements. Including small goals too!  We do not need any negativity in our lives! And remember to push through and say

I CAN and I Will“!!!

Xoxo 😘 #phashiontherapy

12 Things You Didn’t know about Me…


I’m left handed and I’m double jointed

I hate broken promises…

I don’t like it when people who lie or try to deceive me for their advantage.

I love food… I still don’t know what is my favorite food. I still can’t make up my mind

I can beat anyone in a belching contest.. All I need is a can of soda 😂

I do not take confrontations well because I am very defensive with myself. Why you ask? Because growing up I was bullied…

I have many insecurities about myself sometimes I keep it in.

I do not share or express my emotions well. I tend to bottled everything in until I explode.

I love doing spontaneous things and adventures because I believe life is too short. I like to live in the moment, which sometimes can lead to consequences….(Yikes)

Sometimes I wish my mouth has a filter…because I tend to say what ever comes out of my mouth before thinking about it. I can’t help it, I’m very honest. ( so if I ever hurt anyones’ feeling with my words… I’m sorry I don’t mine to 😞

I hate the sound of crunching styrofoams and the sound of fork scratching on a plate.

I’m afraid of failures.

The Perfect Coffee to Cocktail Ensemble: adding AUrate New York on the Plate!

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(Courtesy of Designer)

I believe accessories and jewelry plays a major role when it comes to completing my whole outfit. The pieces can either make or break my wardrobe! For this summer, I found my next new obsession! I am in love with contemporary gold jewelries! If anyone is interested in affordable real gold jewelry, I know where to find some! I recently discovered a hip new jewelry brand that is known for their affordable contemporary gold jewelry…This brand is called AUrate New York!

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(Courtesy of Designer)

I have to say AUrate has a beautiful collections of gold necklaces, bracelets, rings, and earrings. Their brand is about real women at different phases and moments in their lives. The founders designed three lines dedicating to three different types of girls or even the same girl during different times of the day, depending on what we want to think about it. The statement line is design for the fashion-forward type of girl who is either going out to a gala or some other social gatherings. The second line is the understated line, which is created for a girl who dresses very poised and very “Plain Jane”. And then the core line, which is the day to night. This core line is made for a girl who is constantly busy and on the go and will most likely wears her outfit from day to night. I am very inspired by these two bright women. They have introduce us a new way to think about jewelry, it’s a smarter model for a new generation of women. They had discovered fine jewelry at a fair price!


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Who is AUrate New York?

AUrate New York offer contemporary yet timeless real gold jewelry made right here in New York City! “This trendy brand re-writes the rules by offering quality products at an honest price and empowering our community to give back to the world.”

 AUrate make fine jewelry that will last a lifetime. Their smaller and more timeless items are 18K and 14K gold. Their larger and stylish pieces are Vermeil / Gold plated over sterling silver. This company source their gold in accordance with the highest standards of social, environmental and human rights practices.


For this month, AUrate is featuring a minimalist gold bar necklace that could be easily incorporated into a modern outfit…

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Here are some of my coffee to cocktails versatile looks

These are simple and classy looks..All you need to convert your day to night look is either change your accessories, your hair style, or  your makeup ( either change color of lipstick) or shoes!!!

 

 

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